hopes & dreams

where do they live?  they live in the places you would never visit in your daily path.  they live in small depressed office buildings, in lonely garages on dead end streets, in parts of the city where trash is not picked up, where trees are not trimmed.  no one goes here except the people who have no other choice or who have made the choice to try something new – to take a chance – to take a risk for success.  when you start at the bottom, it isn’t pretty and it doesn’t smell good – and the people do not smile.  these people are all just wandering through life, hoping that they will reach the next level.  these people linger in the parking lot smoking away – staring off into the distance.  these people sit in their offices and make long deep sighs all day – they are not sad, they are not happy, they are just there – hanging on by a thread to keep the lights on at home.  when you walk around the parking lot, you don’t look each other in the eye – you are all in the same miserable boat.  your office is a small collection of rooms – empty most of the time or just a few people staring at their computer screens.  there is a fridge but not much in it – there is no sink or kitchen – you have to pour out your water outside or in the bathroom.  there is a microwave in another empty room in the building – it is small and dirty.  the day is the same every day with the occasional surprise or victory – but they are small victories and the big victory takes a long time to achieve or never comes at all.  you wonder how did you get here and why are you here.  you have bet your life on this job in this very small company with not much money.  you only have your hopes and your dreams and your will to keep going.  you will not quit until the day they fire you.  you are sure that day will come soon, but are still holding out hope that what you are doing might actually succeed.  until then, you will keep coming to this place, you will keep trying, you will keep dreaming, you will keep hoping.